Who Does She Think She Is?

If you've read more than two of my blog posts, you know my blog is not an advice column. Goodness knows, I'm no tribal shaman. If you're looking for answers, you better look to the experts. I'm just like everyone else, trying to find what works for me, as I enjoy this journey of self-discovery. If what I learn about life and myself helps you, that makes me happy.

It may bother you that last fall I wrote a piece called "Mr. and Mrs. Happily Ever After," and three months later, you were reading about "No Valentines for Me." I can't offer you much in the way of marriage advice, obviously, with two divorces under my belt, but I can tell you how I'm coping with disappointment.  "Bye-Bye, Sugar" detailed my plans for a thirty day sugar fast that only lasted 15 days, and just yesterday, I was accepting a challenge to "Eat Dessert First". Oh, the mind is willing, but the flesh is weak...

I'm one hot mess some days, and others, I'm able to hold it together, and feel calm, cool, and collected. I vary from wanting to hold myself to society's view of perfection, to accepting myself as I am. One moment I'm a goal-setting machine, and the next, I'm all about "Releasing Expectations." 

Perhaps admitting my human frailties so candidly will disappoint you, or maybe it actually gives you hope to know there is someone else out there who has known trials, battled weaknesses, and took some hits along the way. Life isn't all black and white, cut and dried, right or wrong. 

Most of my blogs won't end up on Pinterest as examples of the right way to do things, but I hope that my words will find their way into your heart to allow you to say, "me, too." We've all known the "heat of the moment" enthusiasm, and the contrasting let-down of reality later. Most of us have experienced loss, and risen above our circumstances.

Photo Credit: Roz Chast Cartoons

I'm no psychologist; I'm no miracle worker. I can't tell you how to do much of anything, but I can tell you how I do things. Maybe you will find encouragement in my words. Perhaps you can learn from my mistakes. Life is a journey, and each of us must find our own way. 

This is not an apology for what I write, but more of an explanation of the obvious randomness of my writing. I'm learning to be okay with who I am. I am learning how to "LET GO" while I learn to "EMBRACE MYSELF." There may be days when you may think, "Who does she think she is?" I hope I never come off as one who has all of the answers. (That may be the most ridiculous sentence I've written to date, since I obviously do not have very many answers, at all.)

Give me some time. I'm still figuring who I think I am. I want, more than anything else, to be an encourager. A voice of hope. An example of passionate living. A friend. 

Making connections with you has given me a feeling of community, and so much joy. Thank you for stopping by Randomocity from time to time. We're all in this together, and maybe together, we'll get some of this stuff figured out.