Do you believe you are deserving of the blessings you seek? I'm not so sure I always thought that way, but after a lot of study and reflection, I think that if we exercised a little more faith, we would discover more blessings than we ever dreamed possible.
I've read several books about abundance. (The Secret and The Law of Attraction are a couple.) There are scriptural references in the New Testament that remind us that there are blessings available to us, if we desire them.
"Ask, and ye shall receive.
Seek, and ye shall find."
One day in May, as I was on an early morning walk, I was contemplating my financial situation. I knew that I needed to find a way to secure medical benefits for my son and me. I knew better than to limit my request by attaching any expectations to my request. Sometimes when we try to figure everything out on our own, we eliminate some possible solutions that may serve us better.
During my walking meditation, I simply recognized the abundance available to us all, knowing the universe has enough and to spare. I did not ask for a knight in shining armor to rescue us. I did not ask for a specific insurance plan to be made affordable to me. I just released my expectations, and told God I knew that there was a way for me to provide for us, and I hoped that I would discover the best way to do that. Yes, for once, I had faith that everything would work out.
And do you know what happened? Before I even had a chance to investigate further, within the next two days, I had three leads for jobs, two of them with full benefits. I didn't have to ask if I should interview for the jobs, or if I should wait for something better. Synchronicity was my greatest blessing that week. I asked; I received. I sought; I found.
Not for one minute did I wonder what I should do. When we ask, and we are given that kind of feedback, there is only one thing to do. I expressed my gratitude for the opportunities, and after a few phone calls, and a job interview, I had myself a job with health insurance coverage.
I wasn't asking to win the lottery, or for anything extraordinary. I was just looking for a way to provide a more stable life for the two of us. My answer didn't come as a fanciful solution; my blessing showed up disguised as work, but I'm so grateful that I asked, and that I received. There is abundance available to us all; we just have to look for it, and be willing to receive it.