Three in the morning. Tossing. Turning. Blankets on. Blankets off. Am I awake for the day? Or can I settle back down and rest?
Now that it's summer, I shouldn't worry at all about being alert or on my toes. When you're facing a classroom full of 35 fifth graders, it's a totally different story. Now that it's summer, and my retirement has begun, I just have to be awake enough to make casual conversation with my husband and not burn breakfast.
So it's not school or work related; it's the best kind of stress: EUSTRESS. Have you heard of it? It is stress that is deemed healthful or giving one the feeling of fulfillment. This is the week of my little sister's wedding. This is the week that we will travel cross-country and reconnect with family and familiar faces. I have looked forward to this since Christmas when my little sister sent me a text message and a picture of her engagement ring, sharing her big news.
My mind is racing with packing lists and gift ideas, travel itineraries and hotel reservations, doggy daycare for Marley and car rental agreements. Travel is so exciting, and at times, a little overwhelming.
There are so many people I know and love in Virginia. It is not the place of my birth, but it is the place I called home from infancy until high school graduation. There are so many directions to which my heart is pulled. I want to see everyone and I can never stay long enough because it seems there's always another visit to make and another place to go . My husband will meet my Virginia relatives for the first time. My girlfriends from high school are gathering next weekend for a potluck lunch, and a rare chance to visit outside of Facebook.
It's now five in the morning. I've taken a warm bath and sipped a cup of Yogi Soothing Caramel Bedtime Tea. I gathered the items I was afraid I would forget to pack. Sleep is so elusive at times, but perhaps I should give it another go. Perhaps the sandman will come for a second time before the sun comes up. Here's hoping...